Healing through authenticity, empathy, and mindfulness: Life Book recap

July (Authenticity), August (Empathy), and September (Mindfulness) in Life Book 2013 focused on the overarching theme of Healing.  I got WAY behind after my daughter’s summer camp program ended in mid-July and so I’ve finally caught up and would love to share these with you all.  This is a full three months of Life Book in one post.  (Hope I don’t scare you away!)

“Embracing All of You” with Tamara LaPorte

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It was coincidental that Tamara wanted to create a girl on a boat… we were going on an Alaskan cruise rather soon.  Each wave contain an aspect of ourselves, with hopes and dreams in the sails.

I did a separate blog post on this self-empathy process.  You can read more about it here.

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“Collage Figure Self-Portrait” with Jane DaviesPeople magazine

Jane says the self-portrait is inherently a way of self-examination and can be whatever you want it to be… playful, critical, etc… but the process of creating it can lead to it’s own revelations.  I got a few weeks behind on LifeBook (and lost the photos that I printed to use on this project), so I just did this one quickly.

You never know… maybe I could be on the cover of People magazine with George Clooney in the background.  🙂

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“Making our Key to Freedom” with Danita

key to freedomThis one is about freeing ourselves from our own limiting beliefs.  Danita says that if we know what our beliefs are, we can work to change them and stop living in discomfort or pain.

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“A Healing Journal Page” with Dina Wakely

silhouetteJournaling covered by ink drops, a stencil and paint.

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“Healing and Authenticity” with Jeanette Maisy House

This lesson was about creating a reminder to ourselves of the importance of gifting quiet time and space into our lives to recharge our batteries.  Jeanette says that our thoughts and instincts are our inner warning system that protects us and guides our choices and actions.  Doing this page was a gift to myself of some quiet time and I loved it!

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“Heart Sight, Heart Light” with Effy Wild

In this lesson, Effy led us in exploring self-empathy and reframing the stories we tell ourselves.  Effy taught us to tame that “inner mean girl’s” reaction and look to her with love.  The point is to find a more empathetic way to talk to yourself.  Moving beyond mistakes and making amends are some things we can do with the help of self-love and compassion and then we can apply it to others when they aren’t being very nice to us.Heart Light final

“The reframe is the ultimate self-empathy tool, in my opinion, because it assists us in changing the very powerfully negative language we use, and applying gentler, more loving language instead.”

We made a textured background with gelatos, tissue paper, paint and inks, and then a heart template and some paint.

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“Radical Compassion and Forgiveness” with Tamara Laporte

Question the thoughts that cause your suffering.  This week was about letting go of anger toward someone who has caused us pain because that anger is damaging to US.  By trying to understand the context of what was happening for the other person, we can see their regretful actions were caused by their own pain and their own misguided delusion.  Wish something for them that would have helped them make better decisions.

holo_finalMy creation went in a different direction entirely, but I enjoyed making it.  You can read more about it here.

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“Mindfulness Art” with Tamara Laporte

With a focus on mindfulness, we played with image transfers and collage.

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 “Ink Blot Butterfly” with Kelly Hoernig

Kelly helped us write some goals for the year back in week 5 and make a game board and this week is meant to be the same color palate to accompany that.  This was very timely because I could use my own encouraging messages to motivate me to play forward with Life Book.  🙂

Ink blot collage

So here’s the game board from week 5 and the finished piece.

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“Feeling and Healing” with Erin Faith Allen

Feelings are amazing inspirational catalysts.  Unfelt feelings create havoc.  Better to feel them, process them, and move on.  Expressing them through art helps too!

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“What’s Inside” with Rachelle Panagarry

I have no idea what the mulberry paper is that Rachelle wanted us to use, but I had this handmade paper with lots of leaves and fibers so I used that.  I love her idea of the hands cradling/covering the face.

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You can view more “Behind the Art” posts here and more Life Book posts here.

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A sense of wonder: Alaska’s glaciers, John Muir, and me

Panoramic glacierMost of my favorite moments have been those filled with wonder… seeing our daughter’s teeny self wiggle around when we had our first pregnancy ultrasound, turning around from the chuppah during our wedding ceremony to marvel at all the people from different aspects of our lives there with us to share our joy, hiking to the top of a mountain in Israel to a rewarding view of a massive waterfall, standing in the Louvre to see the Mona Lisa with my own two eyes.

I am often sort of sideswiped by wonder.  I never really expect it.  I’m just bopping along in life and sometimes those telling goosebumps will appear and I feel a shiver run through my body and I know without a doubt that some life force bigger than I is revealing itself to me and that I am profoundly blessed for the opportunity.

HelicopterOne such opportunity was in Juneau, where we boarded a helicopter and soared over the Juneau Icefield and got to explore a growing glacier, the Taku.  This is North America’s fifth largest icefield and it covers over 1500 square miles of land (100 miles north to south and 45 east to west).

Glaciers form on land as a result of the accumulation of snow over hundreds or thousands of years.  It takes about 100 years for snow to compress and turn to ice to form a glacier.  Over the eons, glaciers have advanced and receded according to the cycles of climatic warming and cooling.  The current trend of global warming has more than 95% of the world’s glaciers retreating.

“Savor and cherish every moment, sound, and mental picture of your time in these pristine wilderness regions of ancient ice.  Alaska’s glaciers have an uncanny way of satisfying man’s growing hunger for beauty and bigness beyond himself.” ~ Kathy Slamp, “Rendezvous With Majesty”

After Alaska’s purchase, one of the first Americans to consider it a land of value was John Muir, founder of the Sierra Club.  In 1879, Muir made his first of several trips to Alaska.  He fell in love with her vast wilderness, discovering glaciers and fjords along the way and making countless measurements and sketches.  When we got home from our cruise, I read Muir’s Travels in Alaska.  All of the quotations below are excerpts from this book of his end-of-life reflections on these early Alaskan travels.

Mountains

View from above with heli

These mountain and wilderness areas are so vast and the glaciers are so majestic that you can quickly lose perspective when you are close to them.  In the photo above, you can barely see the helicopter.

Glacier and sky

“… on this mountain-top, amid so much ice…, everything was more or less luminous, and I seemed to be poised in a vast hollow between two skies of almost equal brightness.”

Window of ice“… every gorge and crevasse, groove and hollow, was filled with light, shimmering and throbbing in pale-blue tones of ineffable tenderness and beauty.”

Crevasse

“Standing here, with facts so fresh and telling and held up so vividly before us, every seeing observer… must readily apprehend the earth-sculpturing, landscape-making action of flowing ice.  And here, too, one learns that the world, though made, is yet being made; that this is still the morning of creation; that mountains long conceived are now being born, channels traced for coming rivers, basins hollowed for lakes; that moraine soil is being ground and outspread for coming plants…while the finest part of the grist, seen hastening out to sea in the draining streams, is being stored away in darkness and builded particle on particle, cementing and crystallizing, to make the mountains and valleys and plains of other predestined landscapes, to be followed by still others in endless rhythm and beauty.”

River of ice“… oftentimes stopping to admire the blue ice-caves into which glad, rejoicing streams from the mountain-side were hurrying as if going home, while the glacier seemed to open wide its crystal gateways to welcome them.”

Little moon people

I must tell you how surreal this experience felt to me.  I’ve never been in a helicopter before, so flying in the air with a piece of plexiglass between me and the air outside was super strange.  Every second of the view was stunning and I forgot to notice any fear.  Our pilot gives people this tour a few times every day, so she’d already lost her sense of amazement, but I couldn’t fathom the numbers she was spouting off like it was nothing, telling us how long these mountains have been here.  And the study of glaciers has a language all its own… equilibrium zone, lateral moraine, moulin, zone of plastic flow… huh?

I liken the people in the photo above to little moon people… I really felt like I must be on the moon.  I was using every one of my senses to “make sense” of it in my mind.  It was completely silent, obviously cold but not windy, with crunching ice underfoot.  I could not tell where it was ok to step and where it was not, so I proceeded very carefully.  I was imagining mammoths roaming this very same area one and a half million years ago.  I was in complete awe.

Rushing water

“… many streams were rejoicing, gurgling, ringing, singing, in frictionless channels worn down through the white disintegrated ice of the surface into the quick and living blue, in which they flowed with a grace of motion and flashing of light to be found only in the crystal hillocks and ravines of a glacier.”

Wall of ice
Growing glacier

The Taku Glacier is the Juneau Icefield’s largest glacier.  It is fed by its substantial accumulation area and its change is unrelated to climate change.  It is currently the only in the area that is advancing, while other glaciers on the Icefield continue to retreat.  In the photo above, you can see that it is slowing knocking down trees!CrevasseGetting closer to the crevasses.
Crevasse zoomHigh above

“When night was drawing near, .. thanking God for the gift of this great day.  The setting sun fired the clouds.  All the world seemed new-born.  Every thing, even the commonest, was seen in new light and was looked at with new interest as if never seen before.”

Thank you, John Muir.  That is exactly how I felt too.  On the bus trip from the air field to the cruise ship, I was still trying to make sense of what I’d just seen.  And I still am.

Please enjoy more Alaska photos:

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October 1 OLW blog hop: an opportunity to grow

OLWbloghop_LOGO_zps1135306cEvery so often, usually when I’m on one of my house straightening whirlwinds, my daughter will grab one of those little Post-it notes I made a couple months back that are supposed to remind me to “Breathe” or “Be still” and come running up to me with it, shouting “Relax!” in my face.  It’s really very compassionate and smart of her, right? And sometimes it works.

Apparently I need more reminding than just the notes and her screaming though.  Ali’s One Little Word class assignment for last month was to interview someone close to us about our word.  One lazy Sunday morning at home, I asked Mr. B these questions.  His answers tell pretty obviously that I’m not doing such a great job cultivating stillness.  Read on…

Q1. How would you define “stillness?” Blocking out everything going on during day and enjoying peace and quiet.  Well of course that is so nearly impossible for me (unless I’m at a hotel spa for the weekend) that I may as well quit now! But I do think that I find stillness in other ways as well – creating art and reading both lower my blood pressure for sure.

Q2. What visual images come to mind when I say that word? Snow at night in the forest.  I do love that!

Q3. What elements of my word do you see in me currently? Not very much because you’re rarely still. Lovely! Not even an acknowledgment for trying!

In what ways do you see me living in alignment with this word? I see you trying to not have something on your to-do list.  Yeah, I realize that is a pretty dumb way to go about finding stillness.  I do tell myself that when I’ve got all these tasks crossed off my list, then I can relax.  And of course, the list is endless.  The trick is pausing in the middle and treating self-care as an important task in itself.

Q4. What would you do if you wanted more stillness in your life? Try to take some time out and not be preoccupied with my job.  That tells me two things.  1) Since he doesn’t take that time, he must not be craving stillness and 2) I don’t really have “a job” per se to take time away from.  I have 24/7 motherhood (teaching, feeding, shaping into a real human being, dressing, developing manners, maintaining relationships, taking care of health, getting her to sleep in her own bed, etc.), projects like blogging and art and photography that could take all my time if I let them, and house stuff like cleaning and organizing and paying bills and budgeting and grocery shopping, ad infinitum.  I go and go and go and go and then wonder why I’m so exhausted every day… by mid-afternoon.  Since there is no clear differentiation between “work” and “home,” I am going to need to consciously insert stillness somewhere in there every day.  

Q5. Do you have any other insights or suggestions that would be helpful to me on my journey with stillness? Stop making to-do lists that occupy your entire day.  And I thought I’d gotten better at that!

Very telling responses, don’t you think? I’m glad I asked because this has given me some good ideas for how to pause and take better care of myself.  I have to stop juggling and just let it all go every so often.

Story of MumsThis is a mashup that I made for Story of Mum called “The best of both worlds.”

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Be sure to visit these other participants to see what everyone is up to. You can see other posts about my OLW project here.

Lee: http://thelinarstudio.typepad.com/embracelife/ (our amazing organizer!)

Cheri: http://cheriandrews.blogspot.com

Margareta: http://www.paperpilekitten.com/

Missus Wookie: mrswookieswanderings.blogspot.com

Naomi: http://www.poeticaperture.com/ <— You are here.

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I’ll be back on Friday with the long-promised Alaska glacier photos!

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Unfolding

Garden photos from a few successive days in July…

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Such a yellow: healing through art

holo_finalIn preparation for an intuitive painting class that begins on Monday, I have been working through July and August’s Life Book lessons, trying to catch up and complete one per day.   On what must have been an emotional day for me, I began Tamara Laporte’s “Radical Compassion and Forgiveness” lesson.

This lesson was about letting go of anger toward someone who has caused us pain because that anger is damaging to us.  By trying to understand the context of what was happening for the other person, we can see their regretful actions were caused by their own pain and their own misguided delusion.

I did not want “go there” and think of someone who hurt me deeply, much less send them love, so I immediately thought about the Holocaust.  I don’t know why.  I wasn’t able to apply compassion or wish something better for Hitler, but I did find value in creating this piece. Thinking about such deep loss is a privilege for me, here today because my family escaped Poland before they could come to harm.

holo_tree textBare trees are symbolic of sadness and yet strength and life.  I chose moody colors – purples, deep blues, and grays.

holo_musicIn 1942, Pavel Friedmann, a prisoner of Terezin concentration camp, wrote a poem called “The Butterfly,” and this poem came to mind while I was working on the background.  His poem has been the inspiration for many projects to commemorate the 1.5 million children murdered by the Nazis.  It was put to melody by Lisa Glatzer and the song and its words has been an inspiration to many.  Pavel died in Auschwitz two years after he wrote the poem.

holo_text excerptsholo_text lastIn the collage, I also included pieces of poetry from Dylan Thomas’ “Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night,” Stephen Spender’s “I Think Continually of Those Who Were Truly Great,” W.H. Auden’s “In Praise of Limestone,” “Lullaby,” and “In Memory of Sigmund Freud,” and Robert Graves’ “To Juan at the Winter Solstice.”

holo_textI took a course in college called “The Shoah,” bursting at the seams with video, books, art, and documentation of and about the Holocaust.  It was intense but oh so valuable.  Memories of that semester kept popping into my mind when creating this collage as well.  Before long, I found myself weeping.  That does nobody any good so I finished up and moved on!

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“The Last Butterfly” by Pavel Friedman

The last, the very last, so richly brightly, dazzling yellow.

Perhaps if the sun’s tears could sing against a white stone.

Such, such a yellow is carried lightly way up high.

It went away, I’m sure, because it wished to kiss the world goodbye.

For seven weeks I’ve lived in here,/Penned up inside this ghetto./But I have found my people here./The dandelions call to me and the white/chestnut candles in the court./Only I never saw another butterfly./That butterfly was the last one./Butterflies don’t live in here.

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September book love: what I’ve been reading lately

Sept readingI’ve been putting off this post for so long because the list of books I’ve read keeps growing and writing a post seems more and more daunting, and so I just now (Just like that! How fun it is to be my own boss!) decided to start a monthly book love check-in here on the blog.  Maybe it’ll keep me more accountable.  I hope you’ll tell me in the comments what you are reading at the time.  I will also update the Currently Reading page more frequently, as it will help me draft these new monthly posts.  A win/win!

This month has been unusual for me in that I’ve held off on most of my art.  I’ve allowed myself to get a couple months behind in Life Book in exchange for catching up on house projects, getting my daughter adjusted to the new school year, and having some down time.  And so I’ve read some great books too!


The Woman Upstairs by Claire Messud

This goes first because it’s my absolute favorite of all 8 books I read this month (and also the one I finished last night).  I can’t say enough about the excellent writing and the depth of introspection and pure emotion that Messud crafted into these pages.  It is a good story, has perfectly drawn, worldly characters that I felt I knew, and left me absolutely stunned.  I am definitely going to read everything this woman wrote!


Then Again by Diane Keaton

I picked this one up at the suggestion of a friend and I’m glad I did.  I have always been drawn to Keaton’s quirky artiness and this was an opportunity to get to know more about her upbringing and romantic relations (with famous people).  Keaton is honest about her early eating disorder and about how her mother influenced her life.


Learn, Create, and Teach: A Guide to Building a Creative Life by Clara Lieu

A quick read full of advice on how to go about becoming successful… tenacity, putting in the time, finding mentors, etc. Lieu wrote the book with artists or other creatives in mind as readers, but I think it applies to many vocations.   I reviewed this book at length recently here.


Death at SeaWorld: Shamu and the Dark Side of Killer Whales in Captivity by David Kirby

After I saw orca in the fjord in Alaska, frolicking and swimming so beautifully, I wanted to know more about these majestic beings.  Kirby’s book was definitely an eye-opener for me.  Kirby has all the facts to contrast orca behavior in the wild to that in captivity and the stats are not pretty.  He writes so well about the lives and thoughts of orca trainers at aquariums, the scientists who study orca all over the world, and the stories of many individual orcas.  I am shocked at the oversight and pure “big business” that Sea World and other establishments allow.  I wish everyone would read this book.


Wilderness: A Journal of Quiet Adventure in Alaska–Including Extensive Hitherto Unpublished Passages from the Original Journal
by Rockwell Kent

Recommended by one of you, I had to get a used copy because it sounded so intriguing! It didn’t disappoint.  I must say that I don’t care for Kent’s drawings (though he is a respected artist), but his words about living on Fox Island for a few seasons with his 9-year-old son were full of adventure and descriptive details.


The Whale: In Search of the Giants of the Sea by Philip Hoare

I’ve never read so much about Moby Dick and Melville – not my favorite – and I was an English major! Hoare includes a lot of narrative of whaling adventures and the history of mankind’s cruelty to these remarkable creatures, which was difficult to read but interesting nonetheless.  I learned about humpback and sperm whales, which I enjoyed.


One Man’s Wilderness: An Alaskan Odyssey by Sam Keith and Richard Proenneke

This is one of the books I bought in Skagway and it’s the first one I opened when I returned home.  This story contains just what I love in rags-to-riches stories… a journey from idea to complete metamorphosis brought about by hard work and sheer determination.  Proenneke took only what he needed, lived simply and in harmony with nature, and enjoyed carving out a cabin and a life in the wilderness.  I found it fascinating.

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I have also updated my Excel file of Everything I’ve Ever Read, including these spring and summer reads (listed alphabetically by author).  I wish I had time to tell you more about each of them, but I hope you’ll check them out yourself.


Proof of Heaven: A Neurosurgeon’s Journey into the Afterlife by Dr. Eben Alexander

AN AMAZING READ:  Thousands of people have had near-death experiences, but scientists have argued that they are impossible. Dr. Eben Alexander was one of those scientists. A highly trained neurosurgeon, Alexander knew that NDEs feel real, but are simply fantasies produced by brains under extreme stress.  Then, Dr. Alexander’s own brain was attacked by a rare illness. The part of the brain that controls thought and emotion—and in essence makes us human—shut down completely. While his body lay in coma, Alexander journeyed beyond this world. There he met, and spoke with, the Divine source of the universe itself.


Throw Out Fifty Things: Clear the Clutter, Find Your Life by Gail Blanke



A River of Words: The Story of William Carlos Williams by Jen Bryant (illustrated by Melissa Sweet)


Bringing Up Bébé: One American Mother Discovers the Wisdom of French Parenting
by Pamela Druckerman


Make Good Art
by Neil Gaimann

Here are a few pages to show you how quirky and fun this book is:

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Peaches for Father Francis: A Novel
by Joanne Harris


The Obituary Writer: A Novel
by Ann Hood

This one is so well written! Set in two different time periods, the story eventually comes together at the end.  I couldn’t put this down!


Steal Like an Artist: 10 Things Nobody Told You About Being Creative
by Austin Kleon

I liked this book so much that I devoted an entire week of posts to it:


Help, Thanks, Wow: The Three Essential Prayers
by Anne Lamott


Pictures of You
by Caroline Leavitt


Ignore Everybody: and 39 Other Keys to Creativity
by Hugh MacLeod


Global Soccer Mom: Changing the World Is Easier Than You Think
by Shayne Moore

Dying To Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing by Anita Moorjani

I cannot say enough good things about this book.  Moorjani’s description of the meaningfulness of her experience brought me much peace.


Me Before You: A Novel
by JoJo Moyes

Beautiful and selfless and so so good!


Travels In Alaska
by John Muir


Raven Girl
by Audrey Niffeneger


Astrid and Veronika by Linda Olsson

So so good.  I love books that create their own far away worlds.  There were times I had trouble reading due to the sweet tears coming from my eyes.  Such longing and intergenerational love.


The Sartorialist
by Scott Schuman

 Schuman is a fashion photographer.  Very interesting book.

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