Talking myself into slowing down

Stack of books(In the middle of way too many books)

Here’s the dialogue that I wrote in my journal the other day.  I was answering myself from a wise place of inner knowing that had been mostly invisible to me until now.

What can I do to begin finding the path toward being at peace with who I am?

Look at simply being at peace.  Period.  

Do one thing at a time.  BE peaceful.

Read one book.  

Take one class.

Make one canvas.

Have one goal at at time for each day.

Am I afraid I’ll miss or forget something? Did you see my eyes darting around the room just now? Am I scared to settle into peacefulness?

You are making it harder than it needs to be.  You are tired.  Slow it way down and see how you feel.

What about my list of short- and long-term projects?

There is nothing on your list that you must do or accomplish.  It’s ok to have lists.  Select one thing at a time that feels playful and right in that moment and fully enjoy doing it.

Your body and mind are racing through your days filed with panic that time is rushing by.  This is an illusion.

You have all the time you wish and need.  Slow down and embody your life.

When awakening each morning, pause to be grateful for a new day of wonder.

Appreciate the solidity of the ground under your feet and the softness of your carpet.

Notice the equilibrium of your body as you walk.

Smell your morning coffee and sip it slowly.  Allow it to fill you.

Feel the paper in your hands when opening the mail.

Be mindful of each sound, sight, and sensory moment as it is before you.

Notice.  Slow w a a a y down and notice.

It will change you.

This will change everything.

Isn’t inner me wise? I need to speak with her more often!

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I’m going on (virtual blog) tour!

One of my very first online friends, Kelly, invited me to participate in a virtual blog tour. (Her post was published last Monday.) I met her in one of the first online photography courses I took and we have enjoyed each other’s posts and photography in the years since.

I am to wow you all with my answers below and then have you waiting with baited breath for answers from three friends who I’ve tapped to follow me next Monday.  So, without further ado…

1. What am I working on?

My schedule was thrown for a loop when my daughter got a virus last week and had a high fever for 5 days straight.  I am a bit behind on my classes at the moment because as soon as she improved, we left for Costa Rica.  (Sounds like life is so tough for me, right?)

Anyhow, I am finishing this piece from Christy’s monthly art workshop,

dress on linedesigning a header for my friend Karen (here’s the one I did for Renee),

Catch a Falling Star header and textfilling my Etsy shop with artwork, and beginning Danielle Donaldson’s CreativeGIRL workshop.  I am also participating in two big events this month:

  • Inspired Mama ProjectThe Inspired Mama Project: Lit From Within, a free 21-day e-course for moms, full of soul-nourishing resources and encouragement for moms.  I am one of the phenomenal mamas who were interviewed to share their mama wisdom.  I hope you’ll join us as we come together to encourage one another, lift each other up and cheer each other on, as we seek to reconnect with the very best of who we are.  You can sign up here.

Mixed Media May

  • Mixed-Media May, a month-long annual blog celebration of mixed-media artists and their creations hosted by my friend Cindy, culminating in huge giveaways on May 31.  I’ll share my publication date as soon as I know it.

2. How does my work differ from others of its genre?

I’m told it’s got a child-like innocence and whimsy to it.

3. Why do I write/create what I do?

I really can’t NOT.  I always feel like I write to know how I feel about something.  I notice the same with my photography and artwork.  It’s a process of discovery, uncovering who I am beneath the surface.  I’m almost always comforted by the artistic process and what arises for me.  I love the feeling of flow that comes when I’m immersed in something artistic.  My type-A mind shuts off and I can express myself intuitively.

4. How does your writing/creating process work?

In my mixed-media pieces, I begin with an intention.  What is the message or feeling I’m trying to convey? Usually there’s a phrase or quote that I’ve come across that inspires me, so I will envision what would visually make that come forward best.  I sketch it on paper or canvas in pencil and then start playing with paint and background layers.  Then I add ephemera, rubons, stamping, and doodling until it’s delightfully busy while still balanced as a whole.

Bud2In photography, I just feel it out.  Once I’m snapping away and looking at nature or people through the viewfinder, I sense where to go next.  I love nature macro work from different/unusual perspectives and candid photos of people when they are naturally being their beautiful selves.

For this blog, honestly the words just flow out of me.  I’ve thought about cutting back to posting two days a week, but I have so many projects and ideas to share with you all! I have always loved writing as a method of communication much more than speaking, which is why I hardly answer the phone anymore.  🙂

I’m passing the baton to these lovely ladies, who will post their answers next Monday, May 19.  We can all look forward to hearing what they have to say.  Please accept my apologies that there are two rather than three.  I finally had to accept that not everyone wants to be part of it and stop asking people!

  • Kelly McKenzie: Kelly McKenzie, one of my very first blog friends from my Momoir writing class days, delights in writing about the minutiae of everyday life – particularly from a mom’s perspective.  Visit her blog for humorous stories and reflections.  
  • Debbie Goode: Debbie is a new friend from my Inspired Blogging group.  She is an acrylic artist with a deep love for nature and critters of all shapes and sizes.   Visit her blog for a glimpse into her ever-changing world as she travels in their “home on wheels.”

Inspired Mama ProjectI’m ready to be an inspired mama, are you?  The Inspired Mama Project:  Lit from Within is a free, uplifting e-course designed just for you.  I hope you’ll join us for this soul-nourishing journey as we come together to encourage one another, lift each other up and cheer each other on, as we seek to reconnect with the very best of who we are.  I invite you to sign up and join us today.

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April reading report

April booksIt’s funny… about mid-way through the month, I thought I wasn’t going to have much to share with you this time.  I’d only read the Jane Green novel and pieces of Caroline Myss’ book.  And then there was a reading explosion! Most of these are quick reads, so don’t be too impressed.  🙂

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Becoming Like God: Our Ultimate Destiny by Michael Berg

 This book gives readers the methodology to destroy ego, begin transformative sharing, and create a path to realize their true, godlike nature.  It’s a quick read and a good modern-day explanation of Kabbalah.  One main issue I had with it… huge sections of the text are in hot pink capital letters.  What could the reason for that possibly be?

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A Little Book About Something Much Bigger: The Gift of a Spiritual Practice by Victoria CryderLois Hughes

Jodi Chapman recommended this little e-book as being “sweet, profound, loving, joyful, spiritual, and amazing.” How could I NOT read this? It’s about maintaining that internal connection to authentic self and Spirit that makes the heart sing. It explores how using prayer, meditation, gratitude, intentions and the law of attraction can move you into an abundant, joyous and authentic life. 

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A Million Little Ways, A: Uncover the Art You Were Made to Live by Emily Freeman

“A Million Little Ways” invites anyone to look at their lives differently by approaching their critics, their jobs, and the kids around their table the same way an artist approaches the canvas–with wonder, bravery, and hope. In her gentle, compelling style, Emily Freeman encourages readers to turn down the volume on their inner critic and move into the world with the courage to be who they most deeply are. She invites regular people to see the artistic potential in words, gestures, attitudes, and relationships. Readers will discover the art in a quiet word, a hot dinner, a made bed, a grace-filled glance, and a million other ways of showing God to the world through the simple human acts of listening, waiting, creating, and showing up.

“We are not trying to become a better version of ourselves.  Instead, we begin to uncover the person whom we have forgotten we already are.”

Please read Wednesday’s blog post where I bared my heart and soul to you…

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Tempting Fate by Jane Green.  I didn’t realize this book was just published days ago! I requested it from the library long ago, so I guess I got it first.  Excellent read.  My only two complaints: 1) the plot was slightly predictable and 2) I stayed up, teary-eyed, into the wee hours of the morning because I couldn’t put it down.

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Entering the Castle: Finding the Inner Path to God and Your Soul’s Purpose by Caroline Myss.  Myss uses Teresa of Ávila’s vision of the soul as a beautiful crystal castle with many mansions as a template for guiding the reader on a journey to meet different aspects of your self.  From Amazon: “Seven stages of intense practices and methods of spiritual inquiry develop your personal powers of prayer, contemplation, and intuition, which in turn reinforce your interior castle and build a soul of strength and stamina.With stories and inspiration from mystics of all traditions, Entering the Castle is a comprehensive guide for the journey of your life — a journey into the center of your soul.”

I have to admit that this book requires a huge commitment.  I made it about halfway through.  The idea is to visualize the process through the various rooms of yourself, and I needed more than the 3 weeks that the library wanted me to have in order to do it properly.  

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Devotion: A Memoir by Dani Shapiro.  “We were complicated by our history, by the religion of our ancestors.  There was beauty and wisdom and even solace in that.  I no longer felt that I had to embrace it all — nor did I feel that I had to run away.  I could take the bits and pieces that made sense to me, and incorporate them into the larger patchwork of our lives.”

“My various rituals – the yoga, meditation, thinking, reading, Torah study — these were disciplines.  They had become, to some degree, habit.  But it was in the space around these rituals that faith resided.  It was in the emptiness, the pause between actions, the stillness when one thing was finished but the next had not yet begun.  Paradoxically, this was where effort came in, because it was so hard to be empty.  To pause.  To be still — not leaning forward, not falling back.  Steady in the present — not even waiting.  Just being… Why did something that should be so effortless require so much effort?”

This book is a meditation on the meaning of life and faith.  It’s a well-written, thoughtful memoir about the authors mid-life crisis and search for spirituality.  I enjoyed it but it is so obvious that Shapiro’s anxiety was oozing out of the pages and into me, so I quickly read it and moved on.

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Happier than God: Turn Ordinary Life into an Extraordinary Experience by Neale Donald Walsh

“Life was meant to be happy.” This book is about the law of attraction, adding God to the equation.  Walsch writes that the ability to create your reality is an expression of God.  The process really has 3 parts: the first has to do with God, the second has to do with you, and the third with you and God together.

This is a very powerful book that I would recommend to anyone wishing to experience happiness within a spiritual context!

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I am also reading an entry a day in The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have by Mark Nepo.  My favorite passage from April was this one:

“We cannot live without being affected by others, but we are only real when we let truth and love shape us from within.  Our want to be liked, our want to avoid conflict, our want to be understood — all these traits tease us away from taking the voice within seriously.”  

Sounds kind of what I said on Wednesday on uncovering our deepest dreams.

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What have you been reading lately? And are you on Goodreads? I’d love to connect there.

Everything I’ve Ever Read (I think)

Currently Reading

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Uncovering your deepest dreams

Love and Pixie Dust

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“We are not trying to become a better version of ourselves.  Instead, we begin to uncover the person whom we have forgotten we already are.”

I read a book last month that sparked a huge “aha” moment for me.  I realized that there is nothing I need to change or do or stop doing in order to do what I’m here on earth to do.  Living fully and authentically each day is already leading me toward my purpose.  We are each born with the answers inside of us and they have been there, hidden, all along.

The book is Million Little Ways, A: Uncover the Art You Were Made to Live by Emily Freeman and all the quotations in this post are from that book.  Whether you’re a garbage collector or an insurance salesperson, living your life and doing your “job” with all your heart, with personal integrity and in a kind and loving way, will lead you to success.

“Uncovering your art does not mean you will find only rainbows and sunshine to pour out on everyone around you.  Uncovering your art is about uncovering what is really there within you, coming face-to-face with your profound capacity for beauty as well as sin, your deepest dreams and your longing for God.”

I have learned how valuable it is to quiet any outside voices in order to better hear my own wise inner voice.  It’s been a wobbly road for me so far.  It’s so tough to stay tapped into my own center without allowing others to crowd it.  I seem to have this NEED to explain, to share new ideas, to gather excitement (and yes, approval) from others.  And yet, so many of these ideas first need space and time to keep growing.  If I share them too soon, they get trampled on.

I would like to make that whole paragraph above bold and italics and larger than all the rest!

“You have to uncover the art before you can release it.  The problem for most of us is, we have let the negative emotions decide for us that the art isn’t worth uncovering.  We have allowed the terror of exposure and the risk of failure to outweigh the truth of our remade identity.”

For me, one dream that is realizing itself right now is literally about art — making and selling mixed-media canvases in my shop.  (The one above was a request to make anything with that quote from Peter Pan.) I can’t even explain how petrified I used to feel that anything I’d put out into the world would be rejected.  It was only after coming to the realization that even if that were to happen, I would still want to make art anyway, that I started feeling free to create with my heart and soul.  I am creating for myself.  I am creating with pure feeling and intuition and love.  And I am trusting that whatever comes forth is meant to be there.

Now that I have shifted my mindset from fear to love and now that I’ve decided that failure was completely acceptable, I’m selling artwork! How about that?

“Uncovering desire is the practice of learning how to look farther beneath the surface than we may be used to doing.  It may require time, space, and solitude to allow our souls to become quiet enough to settle into what is most true.  Learning to look beneath the surface is an important step in uncovering the art we were born to make.”

I’m having a blast following my intuition and my heart and seeing what I can manifest.  Each day is better than the one before.  We are each evolving every day as we grow and learn and try new things.  Tapping into quiet, stillness, and intuition is how I’m determining what’s right for me and what’s not a good fit.

And so I’ve got lots of little secrets with myself right now.  I have a feeling wonderful changes are on the horizon.  What do I need to do to get myself to a place of readiness? I will continue to tap into my intuition and see what comes up.  You’ll be one of the first to know, but not just yet.  🙂

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OK I’ll share ONE thing.  I wish to get more involved in guiding groups of women toward finding their own internal wise voices.  Before I begin that (and it may be a few years yet), I’ve been joining other groups of women in learning how to celebrate ourselves, encourage and inspire each other, and tap into our innate gifts.

Inspired Mama Project

I’m honored and delighted to join with an amazing community of inspiring women in this free, uplifting e-course just for moms.  I invite you to learn more and sign up to join us today.  I’ll let you know which day my interview with Becky will be posted, but you do not want to miss any of this content!

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Soulful home: a corner of calm (May prompt)

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Your home should be your personal oasis.  Home is somewhere you feel safe and most like yourself.  Perhaps, like me, your home is full of clutter toys cat toys things that aren’t exactly precious and yet aren’t going anywhere anytime soon.  The solution? Create little pockets of peacefulness for yourself.

Select a corner that won’t be taken over by activity.  Add personal touches that fill you with peaceful feelings – a candle, a photo, your journal, a seashell or stone, a quote you like in a simple frame.  Go the extra mile to bring in touches that make the space feel cozy to you – a soft blanket or rug perhaps.  See if you can add elements of calm like soft music or a small water fountain.  Add what feels right to you.  This is your personal space.

You can use your corner of calm to sit quietly, to meditate, to knit, or to read.  Even just walking by and glancing at your space can cause you to feel peaceful, knowing that you have given yourself a place for rest.  And at least once a week, take the time out to use your new space.

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Living room couchI love sitting in these two living room spots with a book or my laptop.Living room chair

I have the same chair in the bedroom with a reading lamp.  I also read in bed obsessively.bedroom chair

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Please let us all know in the comments what you’re up to this month! Send me a photo of your corner of calm and I’ll compile them to share mid-month to inspire us onward.  Have fun with it.  🙂

If you have ideas for other monthly prompts in the Soulful Home series, I’m all ears.

Previous Soulful Home prompts

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Photo-heart connection: give yourself creative space

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It’s time for another Photo-Heart Connection! Haven’t done it before? You can learn more about how to find your Photo-Heart Connection here.  Kat talks about “making a commitment to connect art with heart” and invites anyone and everyone to add photography or artwork to the monthly connections.

“We are the facilitators of our own creative evolution.” ~ Bill Hicks

art wall

Sometimes this is the background people see when I’m on a Skype call.  I’m told it’s distracting in a good way.  Inevitably, I am asked about my art goodies and someone will usually say they wish they had a little creative area for themselves.

Mr B. will surely tell you that mine has grown from having nothing to having what could be a small store’s worth of supplies.  I have way too many supplies than space to put them, and this past week I even donated several bags of books in order to make room for them.  That should tell you something!

The very first step was in dreaming of a space for myself.  I’ve always enjoyed my bed as my cozy spot for reading and journaling, but a few years ago, when I flipped through a magazine about creative spaces, I started drooling imagining having something of my own (on a small scale, of course).

I’ve written before about turning our office into my create space, so I won’t show you around today, but instead I’ll tell you how it feels in here.  I come into this room and stare at the walls anytime I’m needing a pick-me-up.  I always get a feeling of unlimited possibility here.  I could create anything… I could dream of anything.  Seeing what I’ve already created all around me gives me confidence in my own artistic expression.  Looking at all the colorful supplies has me itching to touch them and begin something.

I can guess what you may be thinking.  “I’m not creative.” Creativity is like a muscle that each of us has.  If you don’t exercise that muscle, it will atrophy.  But pick up a pencil and do a little doodle and you’ll find that it’s been there all along.  Keep tapping into that inner creative gift and it will strengthen, I promise.  Everyone is born creative.  Each of us, in partnership with God, is creating our every day reality.  Only you have the ability to decide who you want to be next.

It doesn’t have to be anything big.  Maybe next time you’re at the grocery store, you’ll put a pack of colored pencils in your cart too.  Having a little cigar box of scraps, pens, or fabric can be the beginning of everything.  I didn’t start out deciding to take over the guest room with art supplies.  I began with a few magazines, a blank art journal, and a box of pens.

Tell me, what can you do today to find a small creative corner for yourself? Let me know how it goes!

I made this for you…

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Read other bloggers’ PHC April posts.

Here are some previous posts about my create space:

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