So it turns out that if you try to jam in too much activity into too short a time frame, you will suffer physically and possibly emotionally. Relationships will suffer. You’ll be forced to make some decisions.
I should really make these “doing way too much and need to rest” posts a monthly feature. Every time I write one, I think, “Didn’t I just say something similar recently? When will I ever learn?” You remember that post where I told you how excited I am to be starting so many new things? Ha! Some of you totally saw this one coming. I really don’t know what I’m trying to prove.
Wisdom from Brave Girls:
“Pay attention to how it feels to go faster than you really have strength to go….”
“It is always always always worth it to go where the peace is….where the best stuff is…….where we can just BE and not feel like we have to BE ENOUGH. We are ALL already enough.”
Back-to-back late-night events, a photo gig that left my quads shaking, first day of class teacher nerves, severe lack of sleep, PTO meeting, volunteering in my daughter’s classroom, taking the required classes to be a Girl Scout troop leader, my first tap class in 25+ years (and wow is gravity not at all helpful!), daily school lunches and uniforms and so much paperwork, blogging, editing photo shoot pics, trying to fulfill custom art orders, reorganizing our home office and playroom, air conditioning malfunctions, play dates, dance classes, dentist appointments… a girl could just collapse in exhaustion. And that’s just what’s happening.
Rather than attend my first yoga class, I found that I just couldn’t get going. So I put my PJs back on, got back into bed, and slept for 3 hours. I did get to the second class and all the gentle stretching was wonderfully healing to my frazzled nerves.
I want to do so much and try so many things, but I suppose it’s true that you can’t do it all, at least not all at one time of life. A girl can be everything to everyone, but not all at once. I’ve got to be ok with saying no or even “maybe next year.” I have such enthusiasm for it all, but I know I don’t have unlimited stores of energy or time. So frustrating!
I am going to listen to another Brave Girls email and stop comparing myself to what I wish I could be and begin being ok with who I am. I had a rough first couple of weeks of teaching… turns out I am a softy and I need to develop some classroom management skills asap. I’ve been rather down about it. I didn’t need them to tell me that I’m too hard on myself. 🙂
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